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Update 9 weeks 4 days.

I completely forgot to update my blog after our 9 week ultrasound on Monday.

On Monday I had a bit of rust coloured spotting when I woke up so I called my OB office and they had me come in that afternoon.

My ultrasound tech was really well… a bitch. So much so that I even asked her what was wrong as soon as we walked into the room because normally they actually try to make you feel comfortable this lady must of been having a bad day because it was tense from the get-go.

Anyways we started the abdominal ultrasound and she was extremely quiet and my anxiety went to 100 real quick… I asked her if she could see them both and she wouldn’t even respond to me (like I said, a real bitch) so I was panicking. Then she only had me hold my breathe once instead of twice for both babies… I thought for sure I had lost one.

She told me to go to the washroom and we would do a transvaginal. I asked her if that was safe since I was on pelvic rest due to my two hemorrhages and she just said “yes, that’s the policy here”… I wasn’t really sold on that answer but I did want her to do the transvaginal so I could get some answers.

When I returned to the room… I was bad and looked at the screen. I read one was measuring at 9 weeks 2 days and the other was measuring 8 weeks 3 days. I was heartbroken and just wanted to cry as I started getting the transvaginal.

Then she has me hold my breath… then she has me hold my breath again. I ask her “is there two heartbeats?!” And thankfully this is when she stopped being so cold and told me yes both babies are there and have heartbeats. I couldn’t believe it. I started bawling my eyes out (second time during an ultrasound now lol) and I later found out everyone could hear me as my mom came with me but waited in the waiting room and asked if it was me crying. YEP.

The ultrasound tech said that one was hiding behind the other during the abdominal so she couldn’t really see baby B but they were both measuring perfectly and had nice healthy heartbeats.

I spoke to the doctor afterwards and the other great news? One of my hemorrhages is gone and the other is shrinking! He even said he doesn’t think my miscarriage rate would be higher than anyone else even with the twins and hemorrhage which was a relief to hear.

I am definitely feeling more optimistic this week and I even left my bed a couple times to go with my husband for a “car date” which is how we have been having our dates since I can’t walk around much. We just order take out and eat it in the car haha.

I go for another ultrasound in a few days for my 10 week ultrasound and I am hoping the other hemorrhage will be gone too. We are also doing the ultrasound where they check the fluid on the back of the necks so I am hoping we have some good results from that as well.

My ultrasound pic of Baby B isn’t the greatest since she took them abdominally so you only see their back I think. But it’s a great shot of Baby A.

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One of the scariest moments of my life.

We rushed to the hospital last night after a gush of bright red blood just before midnight. I was sure this was going to be the end of my twins.

Thankfully once I got to the hospital the bleeding had stopped and was turning brown. It was a relief to see the gushing red stop but I was still so worried.

Unfortunately my hospital doesn’t have ultrasounds open during the night – which doesn’t make sense to me as I live in a huge city… But anyways I had to come again in the morning, it was going to be a long night.

We got the earliest appointment at 7am and when I woke up the bleeding was light brown but I was having some cramping so I was extremely worried.

My ultrasound tech was actually a student and she was going to have her teacher come in to help teach her. She had never done a full scan on twins so I was happy to help her learn. I also got to hear more about how the babies were doing during the scan as they spoke to each other.

MY BABIES HAD HEARTBEATS. I started bawling my eyes out. I couldn’t believe it and I was so thankful. My ultrasound techs were so kind they even let my husband come see them. They had gotten so big since last week and their heartbeats were 169 and 179.

We had to wait hours at the hospital for our results but we were just so thankful our babies were still alive. We did unfortunately find out I have TWO subchorionic hemorrhages though, both around 2cm in diameter.

I have read there can be complications but we are just focusing on the good at this point. Our babies are doing great and they’re both measuring the same at a day ahead now too which is great.

I am on modified bed rest now so I guess I should find a new TV series I like… I just hope the hemorrhages get smaller quickly and that our babies keep growing steadily.

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Babies looked good!

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Yay! The doctor said the babies are doing wonderful!

We have heartbeats of 140 for Baby A and 145 for Baby B. Which my doctor said is perfect. Baby B is measuring 2 days behind but she also said that it’s completely normal and they can measure ahead or behind up to 7 days. She also said she would guess one is a boy and one is a girl from the sizes but it’s all hocus pocus right now.

My husband took off some time from work to see them today too, so he was really happy. They looked like little peanuts, the cutest little peanuts though.

So definitely feeling happy today!

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7 weeks today.

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Seven weeks today and I have an ultrasound to check on my little raspberries tomorrow. I really hope and pray they are doing well.

My husband is coming with me tomorrow so I am hoping I will have a friendly tech that will let him come and see – he was so sad he missed the first one.

My husband has been so happy about the twins, I think he’s also happy that he was right all along that we are having twins. He’s been incredibly helpful and so protective over me, normally he is – but he’s definitely holding my arm a little tighter walking off the curb now.

“Morning” sickness has been alright so far. I have only actually been sick once, I’m mostly just really nauseous. It comes and goes but late afternoon is when I get hit the hardest or when we are in the car.

I notice when we go to baby stores people are dismissing me as not pregnant. I get the up and down look, they check for a bump and then they move on. Sucks for them because I have to buy twice the amount of things – they’re missing out on some sales. I’m looking at you Buy Buy Baby.

We did buy two bassinets this weekend though. I know you aren’t suppose to shop this early – but they were on sale and it saved me over $80 buying them now compared to later when they’re not on sale. Plus they are prefect. We have a lot of grey chevron already because I was terrible and bought stuff before we were even pregnant, so really my husband wasn’t shocked that I already wanted to buy things.

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Anyways, I’ll update tomorrow once I have some more news and hopefully another ultrasound picture!

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WE ARE HAVING TWINS.

Went to my six week ultrasound this morning and got the surprise of a lifetime.

We are having twins!

My husband has been wanting twins so badly and has even been saying it’s twins since we got pregnant due to my beta numbers doubling quicker than normal.

I didn’t tell him until he got home that it was twins and he’s so excited. I made him this surprise box which he loved.

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His family is a lot more excited with this announcement compared to us telling them we were pregnant which is a nice surprise.

They had great heartbeats for their age. 110 and 115 which my doctor said was good for 6 weeks, especially since their hearts just started beating within the past couple days and will increase daily.

I go for another ultrasound next week at 7 weeks at the fertility clinic to see how they’re progressing before sending me to an OB.

I was so sure I was going to have bad news today, so I am utterly shocked and feel so thankful.

My ultrasound tech had a feeling it was twins before she even scanned me too which was neat. She asked me how many follicles I ovulated with before scanning me and then once she started scanning me said “You know, I don’t ever ask people how many follicles they had at ovulation so I wasn’t sure why I blurted that out… but now I do because you’re having two!”

I can’t wait to see them again! My precious little ones.

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4 weeks 5 days.

My baby is the size of a red lentil today. I want my little one to keep growing…

I don’t know why but I am having the worst anxiety about miscarriage. I fall into a hole where I am googling miscarriage statistics, molar pregnancies, blighted ovum and HCG numbers… I can’t stop. It’s becoming an obsession especially because I keep waking up in the middle of the night and can’t fall back to sleep so I Google things.

I had great HCG numbers. I had a very thick lining. I’m on progesterone suppositories. I’m having a lot of symptoms. I have never had a miscarriage (or pregnancy) before. I’m only 23… I have no reason to think I will have a miscarriage yet… It won’t leave my head.

I’m also upset because my husband’s family don’t seem excited or really even seem to care that we’re pregnant. This is both my husband and I’s first child but they don’t seem to share our excitement.

Yet my parents are through the moon so I am worried it might be upsetting my husband. I just wish people could be happy for us.

You know that saying … “treat people how you want to be treated?”

Well I am calling bullshit. I am such an enthusiastic person when someone tells me good news. I enjoy being happy for people and celebrating. I have been SO EXCITED for his sister and was always asking her how she was feeling, when’s her next ultrasound and the whole nine yards.

Her responce when we gave her a Valentine’s Day card from our baby?

“Oh wow (sarcastically) will you look at that… congrats guys…” and a one armed hug.

His mom just said “oh that’s great, congrats”

His dad said “well looks like you guys have some planning” no congrats or I’m happy for you.

Maybe I am being hormonal or sensitive but it hurt my feelings that they don’t actually seem excited or happy for us.

Anyways… We’re excited and my family is really excited. We can’t wait to see baby on the 27th and I hope they give us an ultrasound picture.

On another happy note I was naughty and bought a REALLY CUTE SHIRT. I won’t be wearing it until we announce but I am thinking I will take my bump pics in it as it grows.

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4 weeks 3 days.

I had my third beta test yesterday with good numbers again! From 248 – 651!

My nurse was really happy with the numbers and I am definitely pregnant. We also booked my first doctors visit and ultrasound! I go for a six week ultrasound on Feb 27th and I am very excited.

I feel a little bit less nervous now that my betas are getting nice and high – plus I passed my expected period date. I hope little one keeps growing now.

I decided to start taking my “bump” pictures even though it’s just fat and bloating right now, but I really don’t want to hide behind my weight. We worked really hard to finally get this miracle and I don’t want to be ashamed of my body the whole pregnancy or not post because I am not one of those cute tiny pregnant ladies. I want to experience a maternity shoot and take pictures of my growing bump to show my little one eventually. So here’s my first bump picture! My itty bitty baby is in there!

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