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Update 9 weeks 4 days.

I completely forgot to update my blog after our 9 week ultrasound on Monday.

On Monday I had a bit of rust coloured spotting when I woke up so I called my OB office and they had me come in that afternoon.

My ultrasound tech was really well… a bitch. So much so that I even asked her what was wrong as soon as we walked into the room because normally they actually try to make you feel comfortable this lady must of been having a bad day because it was tense from the get-go.

Anyways we started the abdominal ultrasound and she was extremely quiet and my anxiety went to 100 real quick… I asked her if she could see them both and she wouldn’t even respond to me (like I said, a real bitch) so I was panicking. Then she only had me hold my breathe once instead of twice for both babies… I thought for sure I had lost one.

She told me to go to the washroom and we would do a transvaginal. I asked her if that was safe since I was on pelvic rest due to my two hemorrhages and she just said “yes, that’s the policy here”… I wasn’t really sold on that answer but I did want her to do the transvaginal so I could get some answers.

When I returned to the room… I was bad and looked at the screen. I read one was measuring at 9 weeks 2 days and the other was measuring 8 weeks 3 days. I was heartbroken and just wanted to cry as I started getting the transvaginal.

Then she has me hold my breath… then she has me hold my breath again. I ask her “is there two heartbeats?!” And thankfully this is when she stopped being so cold and told me yes both babies are there and have heartbeats. I couldn’t believe it. I started bawling my eyes out (second time during an ultrasound now lol) and I later found out everyone could hear me as my mom came with me but waited in the waiting room and asked if it was me crying. YEP.

The ultrasound tech said that one was hiding behind the other during the abdominal so she couldn’t really see baby B but they were both measuring perfectly and had nice healthy heartbeats.

I spoke to the doctor afterwards and the other great news? One of my hemorrhages is gone and the other is shrinking! He even said he doesn’t think my miscarriage rate would be higher than anyone else even with the twins and hemorrhage which was a relief to hear.

I am definitely feeling more optimistic this week and I even left my bed a couple times to go with my husband for a “car date” which is how we have been having our dates since I can’t walk around much. We just order take out and eat it in the car haha.

I go for another ultrasound in a few days for my 10 week ultrasound and I am hoping the other hemorrhage will be gone too. We are also doing the ultrasound where they check the fluid on the back of the necks so I am hoping we have some good results from that as well.

My ultrasound pic of Baby B isn’t the greatest since she took them abdominally so you only see their back I think. But it’s a great shot of Baby A.

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One of the scariest moments of my life.

We rushed to the hospital last night after a gush of bright red blood just before midnight. I was sure this was going to be the end of my twins.

Thankfully once I got to the hospital the bleeding had stopped and was turning brown. It was a relief to see the gushing red stop but I was still so worried.

Unfortunately my hospital doesn’t have ultrasounds open during the night – which doesn’t make sense to me as I live in a huge city… But anyways I had to come again in the morning, it was going to be a long night.

We got the earliest appointment at 7am and when I woke up the bleeding was light brown but I was having some cramping so I was extremely worried.

My ultrasound tech was actually a student and she was going to have her teacher come in to help teach her. She had never done a full scan on twins so I was happy to help her learn. I also got to hear more about how the babies were doing during the scan as they spoke to each other.

MY BABIES HAD HEARTBEATS. I started bawling my eyes out. I couldn’t believe it and I was so thankful. My ultrasound techs were so kind they even let my husband come see them. They had gotten so big since last week and their heartbeats were 169 and 179.

We had to wait hours at the hospital for our results but we were just so thankful our babies were still alive. We did unfortunately find out I have TWO subchorionic hemorrhages though, both around 2cm in diameter.

I have read there can be complications but we are just focusing on the good at this point. Our babies are doing great and they’re both measuring the same at a day ahead now too which is great.

I am on modified bed rest now so I guess I should find a new TV series I like… I just hope the hemorrhages get smaller quickly and that our babies keep growing steadily.

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Beta #2 was good news!

Went for my beta today (14DPO) and ended up getting some great news! My beta was 248 from 46! HUGE increase in three days.

My clinic has now officially also declared me as pregnant! The nurse today was much nicer than the nurse on my first beta too. They want me to come in for one more beta on Tuesday.

Four weeks and baby is the size of a tomato seed!

Period is due today/tomorrow so please don’t show up! Fingers crossed!

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Nervous for 2nd beta tomorrow.

3 weeks 6 days today and hoping I will stay pregnant. I had a nice thick uterine lining and on progesterone suppositories so I hope baby stays nice and cozy.

I ended up telling my parents last night, I wasn’t going to tell them until after my second beta but I needed to share the news with someone! Plus if anything did happen, I would want my mom.

I gave them a Valentine’s Day card from baby and told them that they will see them in October! Both my parents started crying and they were so excited. They are already trying to decide their grandparent names LOL.

I haven’t tested in 24 hours now as I was stressing myself out comparing the lines to each other and wanting them to get darker quicker. I ended up just getting a digital so I would get a simple yes or no and I got a yes!

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My appetite is pretty weird the past couple days… I’m just not super hungry and food just tastes boring. I really only want spicy food!

I’m mostly just worried about this weekend though since my period is due Sunday/Monday… Once I am done with my betas and passed this weekend I think I will calm down a bit.

Fingers crossed for good beta numbers tomorrow.

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7dpo and feeling yuck.

My medication are giving me so many fake symptoms this round compared to last round, I do hope some of these are real symptoms but it’s probably too early since I am only 7dpo.

My husband says he has a really good feeling about this round but I am definitely feeling less optimistic. I just feel like it won’t ever happen, I can’t imagine being pregnant.

I have been having a lot of cramping, gas, food cravings, dizziness, hot flashes and even slight nausea from my progesterone, clomid and I’m guessing some symptoms might be from my trigger shot.

But please, please, please just let this be our month. We both want this so badly.